Christmas is such a special time. I so miss not being able to chat to you about our Christmas plans. I am feeling so sad. Losing a sister is so hard to bear. I know we had our disagreements, however that is usual with sisters. However we have a great bond . Sisters are special and we had a very special relationship where we shared your son JA. I unfortunately could not have children but from the first day I held my nephew JA a very special bond was formed. I did not want to pick him up from his cradle,in hospital but you knew I should and persuaded me to do this. This was a very special moment that will last me a life time and my envy fell away and pure love prevailed for my beloved nephew who I love like a son. I will always be here for JA and love him so much . I feel like we share him as a son. My beloved John Anthony who has given my life so much meaning. You were taken from us far too early and deserved so much more. I love you so much and was devastated that you passed before we could say our farewells. Perhaps that is hw it was meant to be. Good night my lovely sister. Sleep tight and rest in peace. Hopefully see you in heaven.